jackie

friends only. solo friend ehhhhhhh. :D

i dont like lj but its okay. jocy invited me to the cape but i dont want to go. maybe thursay ill show up or something. meh. i wanna go back there D:

artos mother's mom fell off a roof in mexico city. so she went to visit her. she probably wont be back until this weekend. so during the day, i get the house to myself. id totally throw a party, but i dont know anyone here. hah. the milk is supposed to be coming soon. actually he was supposed to be here 20 minutes ago. damn milkman..i washed all the dishes and made my bed. i have to make food for me and andrea at liek 230.
ill just sit here and listen to neil young all day

...milk man just came. i didnt understand what he said. it was embarrassing.
the milk looks normal.
gotta boil it later on today


noone is online. i feel alone. im tempted to call people and i cant. oh well. theres no good dvds. and arto took the hard disk with all his movies. so i cant watch shit now. woo. great.

i cant download movies. i dunno why. it doesnt connect. borat is half done. i cant wait to watch it again. its so funny. it JUST came out in theatres here. so late.
i wanted to go see it this friday but i guess not.

school starts monday. im nervous.
im gonna be a certified programador analista. woot. so special..

hey hey
my my
rock and roll can never die

theres more to
the picture
than meets the eye

hey hey my my

neil young is like
depressig music
yummi

i had a fucked up dream with casey last night
she was making fun of me for being to white?????

i love how newspapers write such bullshit and people ...actually believe it!

http://www.thestandard.com.hk/news_detail.asp?pp_cat=17&art_id=35131&sid=11554548&con_type=1


1. mexico is too damn poor to wast money on gps
2. yes the gvt has the money, but hellllllooo..its MEXICO. theyre not gonna waste the money on their own people. thats like, illegal, here. haah
3. the us would go a little off the wall

just woke up

im hungry
and cold


i feel sick

hoy mi pared esta triste y vacia

es que quite tu fotografia
no quiero mirar tu dulce sonrisa
si ya no es mia
si ya no es mia
fui y escondi
en un citio lejano
donde guardo las cosas
que me hacen dano

no quiero llorar al mirar tu cara
si ya no es para mi
esa mirada

viven mis horas dormidas sin emociones

paso los dias haciendo estas tristes canciones

de que vuelvas otra vezzz


flaco peroso cansado y sin ilusiones

muere mi cuerpo mi casa no tengo pasiones

y aunque pretendo ocultarte te llevo presente
aqui en mi mente

que puedo hacer si corres por mi llanto

saber donde estas
y no poder llamarte

y quiero salir como un loco a buscarte

pero aun tengo rabia
y me quedo esperarte
yo quiero saber si al final te das cuenta
que como yo nadie puede amarte

arto came this weekend. he surprised me friday afternoon. i was pleased. i can not speak english anymore. in some group thing i wrote boyfriend from mexican city. haha. i need to start back up in english. arti just left. i feel lost. i wanna go back....but i cant leave arti here. what if he decides he doesnt wanna go there. id pay for coyote visa whatever. i just need to work again. i feel useless. i miss running my life. buying my own shit. now i have to wait for him and tell him if i really need anything. it sucks. but it shouldnt matter because i know that in a year or maybe less, it wont be like this. if i stay here. but i keep getting dizzy. and i get a lot of panic attacks. im worried about my health. and the well-being of everyone because if i get caught here, everyone is fucked including myself.

watching shawshank redemption. i cried when brooks killed himself.
i feel sad.
i went to find andrea
but shes sleeping
senora was on the comp
so i started laughing half crying
she was like aare you ok

and i walked out


this morning we went to this pool
and this dude trained us
so i learned to fancy swim

woot.

im going tomorrow i guess too
and satruday

i start classes the 15th monday-friday 630-800
and monday wednesday and friday from 3-4 we´re going swimming

i miss ito
hes coming saturday

i start school the 15. very excited. im gonna be a programador analista

woot

2007. i will have 100 things by the end of this week


1. buy a camera
2. go to us with arty
3. start a website
4. listen to better music
5. learn the saxofone
6. see the doctor about my blood pressure
7. vive latino (or in califas)
8. get a mac
9. get a dpt
10.get in shape
11. eat better
12. new shoes, new bras(only have one)
13. help senora out more.
14.beat arty in nhl 2004
15. start back up in basketball
16. talk to family
17. stop biting nails.
18. get wisdom teeth out
19. get a decent job. decent pay.
20. learn politics